I've tried this several times and couldn't do it and I really wanted everyone to see my angel


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Friends,

You should see how cute he is when you "click here to see full size image"!! Oh that smile!!!

Jackie

Oh Joyce, Bill is an angel and you are one too. His picture is priceless. We are keeping you and your family in all our hearts. Tender (((hugs))).

Oh, I agree with Jackie, what a wonderful smile!!!

What a handsome man! That smile is the golden ticket right there:) And of course, he is smiling at you, Joyce, and that makes it extra special. I can really see the love between you both.

Joyce, you come in here and talk about whatever you want to talk about. You know we get it and love to hear about the beautiful stories of you and Bill. We were there for you then and we are here for you now and whenever you need us. You are very much loved here and when I see you in a few weeks, I will give you those hugs I can only give you here in this way ((((hugs))))

If you have other pictures you would like to share, please keep them coming. We would love to see them. Take care.

I'm sorry I missed your call Joyce, but by the time I got it, now that I know it is "TWO" hours difference, I didn't dare. The last time I called, I thought you would all be up talking, having drinks, whatever, and I woke one of your Son's In-Law, and said please do not wake Joyce, you were sleeping, he said. I can call tomorrow, or once everyone clears out, I am sure you will want to.......Thinking of you HARD! Praying for you HARD! It seems you are doing all right, but you may not even know yet. Like Lori says, you may still be in shock.

I thought I knew a lot about mourning, as turns out, I know nothing! I do know that it changes, and stops, and sneaks up on you, and subsides, and is different for everyone. I am "SO" glad you have "TWO" families, that is bound to help.

Love You!

Sorry I missed you, too, Sky. I'm having no trouble sleeping, in bed before 9 last night but up before 5. That isn't much earlier than usual.
Noticed the basement light was left on and went down to turn it off and found my SIL sitting down there watching tv. I sat on the couch next to him and he put his arms around me and held me until 7. I told him he should go to sleep because he had been up all night. He said he just needed a cup of tea so I went up and made us some. When I got back down he was curled up sleeping. I covered him and brought his tea back upstairs.
Everyone else is still sleeping and will probably still be sleeping at noon, if I don't wake them cleaning up.


Lori,
I don't know if it's shock or denial. I just don't believe he's gone. Find myself wanting to tell everyone to be quiet or they'll wake Dad. Then I think he's in respite. Wonder how long I can keep him there? I think denial would best describe what I am.

I told SIL this morning that I wouldn't accept until everyone was gone and I was here alone. He said that he and Sandra, daughter, weren't going anywhere. The oldest daughter and family have to leave Saturday. All three of the girls are making their own plans on what I am going to do. They all know I'll do what I want when I want. I told them I may just get in the car and go and they all said ok but to just let them know.

Everything is moving right along. Not much to do since all our assets are in my trust. The life insursance have been notified and Bill's pension has been notified. I will still be receiving the pension and will still have full health insurance due to the way Bill set things up when he retired. He always did and still is taking care of me.

I'm no help when it comes to offering advice here right now but you are a big help to me. A place where I can come and say how I feel. Thank you.

Joyce, old habits are hard to break. I know when my folks passed away, I had urges to call them yet, especially in the evenings before I would go to bed. My brother still reaches for the phone periodically on Sundays because that was his time to call home. And when things get tough and I need someone, that urge comes back and is 10 times as painful because then I am reminded I am again an orphan and have no one to help me. I do understand how you feel. It sucks:(

I thought it was really great how your grandson asked if you wanted to come with him to get something to eat. I wanted to comment on that. I am sensing he might have needed alone time with his grandmother as well. Anyways, that part warmed my heart.

That's great you won't be hampered with the financial stuff. My Dad would never set things up for my brother to make anything easier, although Dad had no problem insisting my brother be made executor. Mike had to start from scratch on everything. He is still plowing through it, a year and one heart attack later (his third).

Please take care, Joyce. I am going to wait until things quiet down after a few days over there. I would like to give you a call and still have your number. Just concentrate on you and the things you feel you need to do to get through each day. Hang in there.

Oh, I sure understand that wanting to get in the car and just take off.
The thing I remember most during those early days was going out and constantly looking at my watch. I kept feeling that I needed to get home.

You're going to go through a lot of different emotions in the months ahead so I say enjoy that denial while you can.

For about a year after my mom passed, always the first thought that popped into my mind is that I have to call mom and in a split second, I would remember. I remember the house being very quiet after she passed and I couldn't feel her there anymore and it was evident to me that my mom had moved on. I wanted to picture her as visiting with her parents and brothers. My sister said she had dreams of my mom and that my mom wanted her to find joy in her life. I remember before going to sleep, I would say a prayer to my mom, to come to me in my dreams and let me hug her. It was several months before I had such a dream, I don't remember it, but I remember waking up feeling warm and hugged. I pretty much ask my mom daily to please watch over dad and help us out with him, and she hasn't failed to do that yet. I really feel she's looking out for him, he's come out of some difficult situations and I believe it's with her help. I feel she's close by, still looking after us quietly.

Joyce, I am relieved that Bill took care of things like the health insurance and the pension a long time ago. Yes, he is still taking care of you. See what you did by putting his picture up, you have a whole bunch of women in love with him!

What a kind face he has. What a beautiful smile.

Just checking in to see how you are doing and sending my love.

Thinking of you

Sending warm thoughts and prayers your way, Joyce.

Cherie

Dear Joyce,

My little girls and I laid in bed yesterday morning and prayed for you, I cry every time I tell someone about Bill. Wow, seeing his picture made me smile and cry all at the same time, what a guy!

Much love to you dear,

~Kelly~