Last night was a bad time. I ended up going to bed at 8 just to escape. That's something I don't want to do, so I can't do that. Nothing seemed to help though. I looked at Bill's picture, listened to his song and remembered. I just miss him so much. I know he is in a better place, is now whole, and is happy, but I am here and I hurt and I'm not happy.
I just want him here with me but not if he has to suffer.

Sorry Jackie and Sam but my strength is just not working right now.

You are following your heart, Dear. I think, like Snick said so beautifully, you are doing exactly what it is you are supposed to be doing. Even last night.

Know our hearts are with you, whatever your pace.

Love,
Sam

You don't have to be strong now Joyce. This is your time to grieve. Be patient with yourself and know that we are always here for you.

Oh Joyce, yes, you aredoing exacty what your suppose to be doing. No time limit, no pressure, what you want, when you want. You don't need to be strong. You need to do exactly what Snicks said, whatever is in your heart. We're here for you dear one.

Jackie

Joyce, you had strength enough to know when you had enough and to end the day - to give your body and heart rest and a time out from the grieving. Give yourself a thumbs up. You're going to be okay...it's going to take time and we will be there with you every step of the way.

Dear Joyce,

I, too, went through a cleaning spree after Old Navy's funeral... I think we cleaned out enough old furniture and clothing to completely set up in another house!

DH said he wished I could clean every week like I cleaned those two months.

I'm still keeping you in my prayers. Keep being strong, and if you can't, lean on any of us until you're strong again.